just another week

My sweet little Sammie! She is just amazing! She has done so well with the baby I am watching. She has just taken on the maternal role naturally! She wants to do everything for Kate and she even calls her “My Baby!”

Sammie can almost ride her bike all by herself and she loves going for walks with mommy. Sammie is just loving school so much, every time she comes home from school she is singing me a new song and talking all about what she did at school!

I am doing well, I am not pregnant but I have lost 8 pounds! I am working every hard to get to my goal weight and maybe then we will work on having a baby. Until we are ready I think I will try to keep from the “accidents”

Richard still has not found a job, he has only had about 3 interviews so we are praying that something will come though that is right for us.

God please help us!

It’s been a very weird and sad day! I got my first client who started today at sweet 3 month old baby! Then just hours after I am trying to adapt to the life of a 3 month old and a 3 year old my husband walks through the door with no job! Yes, he was fired today! There are little to no jobs here in Sacramento for his industry and the ones that are available are playing crap, so that means that we have to prepare to lose our home! In addition to this yucky messy situation I think I am pregnant, I don’t know for sure yet I have another week to wait before I can test but things were going well for us and work “was” great and we were ready for another baby. I am scared to death of everything that is happening, you know between the really bad things going on with my side of the family, Richard losing his job after months of little work, things just started to pick up for him a month ago…I have no idea what is going to happen to us. I have been in tears since Sammie went to bed and I could cry alone and I just pray, I pray to god that he help us. I need some mercy, I really do its been years of bad things happening to us, with a few good things plopped in here and there. Please pray for us, I feel so lost